14 July 2016


What if I could light the sun with a single touch? // Jeani

13 July 2016

I love myself // poem

“I love myself” my head decided
A grin lingering on my teeth
“I love myself” I whispered to
The girl on the next seat
“You love yourself?” She gasped
Horror plastered on her pupils
“I love myself” I confirmed with pride
Unaware this was unusual

“She loves herself” the word had spread
They slowly backed away
“How could someone dare to love?”
“Why is she not ashamed?”

“I hate myself” I tried it out
I taste the words on my tongue
“I hate myself” I said aloud
Then they sing the song I sung
“You hate yourself? We welcome you to
Join in our society
It isn’t pleasant, by any means;
We bathe in your anxiety”

“I hate myself” I began to doubt
The morals of this movement
The language they speak of jealousy
I refuse to speak it fluent

So “I love myself” returns once more
But I now understand
They hate the world; they hate themselves
So I must be also damned
But I will stand alone in this
If that is what it takes
To acknowledge that we’re in a mess

For love to replace hate

12 July 2016

What do teenage girls think about feminism?

Hello! I am starting a series of videos where I talk to different types of people about their opinions on feminism so I can get a well-rounded view of the movement and can generally just view it through other people's eyes and perhaps gain a new set of perspectives.
Here is the first video, filmed with my best friend who happens to be a teenage girl. I wanted to start with someone who is the same age as me and therefore has a similar amount of knowledge and understanding of the subject. We are just being introduced to this massive movement which has been around for roughly a century and we are just really getting to grips with what it's all about, still learning about empowerment and inequality. In this video we talk about our initial thoughts and what we currently think about certain aspects within feminism, because, of course, we have only skimmed the surface of a massive conversation. 
We both agree that before the internet and self-education through YouTube, we had never really heard of feminism other than the history of Emmeline Pankhurst and women's fight for rights in the early 20th century, there is next to no education about modern feminism. Over the past few years there has been a rise in the number of young people openly identifying as feminists, this rise in feminism has also caused a rise in anti-feminism, which has really made access to information about women's rights a lot more available on the internet as it is currently a very large discussion across the world. Being at high school, we generally heard a lot of negative slurs from the teenage boys that throw around 'funny' sexist comments like tennis balls, but it always made me flinch as though they were throwing around my new iphone. This was when I first started looking into slut shaming and realising that that was really wrong and I would start arguing against that.

So, in this video we explore many thoughts and confusions that we have had, I hope you enjoy! If you have any questions please comment below!

Important links to thing mentioned in the video:
http://youtu.be/FgK3NFvGp58 - intersectional feminism
http://youtu.be/gkjW9PZBRfk - Emma Watson UN speech 
http://youtu.be/g3KYm5AHdbs - Hannah Witton on feminism

10 July 2016

OOTD - Casual Dinner

Hello everyone!!!

Yesterday I was very privileged as my Grannie took me on a shopping spree round the city, so I have decided to show you one of my favourite outfits that I bought!

You can wear this to a family dinner or a party as it is suitable for formal or casual occasions, I wore it to my mum' birthday dinner:

The skirt was from Topshop, it was in the sale so is no longer selling but I have linked a very similar skirt. This is £20

The vest was from New Look. but, again, it doesn't sell anymore so I have linked one from Boohoo which is more or less identical for £5

The outer-tee was from Zara but I cannot find it on the internet anywhere! It was £7.99 in the sale!

I hope you liked my post, if you would like a full haul of the clothes I bought comment below!!!

Please have a look at some of my other posts as well, I hope you enjoyed!!!

Jeani xxx

6 July 2016

5 reasons it's better to not shop on the high street/in contemporary shops

For the majority of my life, I have spent my time shopping in New Look, H&M and Topshop because it was a) the easy option b) what everyone else did and c) all I ever thought there was. A few weeks ago I shopped on a car boot sale for the first time in my life and there were many reasons why I realised it was better than shopping in a large contemporary store, which, of course, I am going to tell you shortly. There are many alternatives to shopping on the high street, for example: charity shops/thrift stores, antique/vintage stores, car boot sales, smaller less established businesses and second hand websites to name a few. So, without further ado, here are my reasons to shop in these kind of places:

1) It is so much cheaper (most of the time)
If you shop second hand clothes, majority of the time you are going to spend less money! For example, I once bought a Ted Baker dress for only £6 in a charity shop because that is naturally the expected price in a second hand store
2) You're money is going somewhere useful
When you shop somewhere other than a contemporary high street store, you are supporting an individual/a charity where your money is valued because it is going to help someone's life either to pay bills, help a child or feed someone for a night, rather than going into a large business where the money is just an insignificant amount of profit amongst other people's insignificant donation to the business which is already established, already rich and your money really serves no purpose. It will give you a sense of helping someone and you will feel much more valued.
3) You are helping to save the world
Large clothing manufacturers are one of the largest emitters of greenhouse gases for many reasons, for example: transport, factories, as well as washing, tumble-drying and ironing. When you shop in a charity shop, you are helping to recycle which means less goes to the landfill, roughly one million tonnes of textiles are  thrown away each year!!
When you shop in smaller less established stores, you are (probably) supporting hand made items, which means less pollution from mass-production factories and there is a guarantee of no child labour, which is a large part of the mass clothing-manufacturing industry.
4)You develop an individual style 
For as long as I can remember, I have craved an individual style where I stand out from everyone else. I have always wanted a style that represents me, my personality and my attitude to everyone else. Recently, I have started shopping in antique and vintage stores as well as charity shops, and my style has become more diverse and a lot more varied as there are many different influences to the way I dress. High street stores only sell what is trending - trends are constantly changing and morphing with the young generation, but when you shop in smaller places you are constantly morphing at your own pace, your style reflects and moves with you, rather than the general population. This leads me on to my next point:

5) You get a creative rush and it's really fun!

Shopping amongst junk is seriously the most exhilarating and exciting experience (sky diving and dolphin swimming aside). I love the feeling of finding something beautiful or perfect in the midst of piles of utter crap. Often the things you find won't be perfect, which gives you the inspiration to fix it, for example me and my mum had to alter a handmade dress from the 1960s that was made for a girl with a waist 3/4 of the size of mine, because people were a lot smaller. The clothes you own have a story and are suddenly an interesting conversation topic! It's fun to go to these places with mates as well as it's an inspiration to them too, plus, you can dress up like old women and have a laugh or just have fun doing something new!

So, tell me, have I persuaded you? I would LOVE to hear your views so please comment below and join the discussion!!!

Jeani xxx